by Angela Moreno

I have a confession. I have to be in control in every situation in my life. I need to know exactly what to expect, when to expect it, and I want no surprises. And I don’t want to have to rely on anybody else to help me out.

So imagine what this COVID-19 scare has done to my ability to be in control. I have ZERO control right now. I’m out of work, still waiting on my unemployment payments to kick in three weeks after I was laid off, and full of uncertain circumstances. All of this uncertainty does not bode well for my mindset.

I’m sure many of you are riding in this same boat with me, a boat that has no oars or motor, that is floating to an unknown location. You are trying to keep a smile on your face when inside you are screaming because of the uncertainty.

I have spent a lot of time over the last few years talking and teaching about the goodness of God and how He always provides for his children no matter what the circumstances are. Now that I’m face-to-face with the reality that I have to fully rely on God to take care of me and my family questions plague my mind. How is God going to fix my situation? Why am I so uncertain that He will fix my situation and why is He taking so long to act? Why isn’t He doing this in my time frame? Why do I have a small doubt that God won’t take care of this quickly enough to ease my mind and spirit?

God is good and I know that in my heart and soul. I know He will take care of me and my family, and above all else, I hate that Satan is trying to plant fears in my mind and doubt about the goodness of God. Even more, I hate that I am allowing him to do it.

Right now, God is working on my control issue. He has clearly shown each and every one of us that we most definitely are not in control of anything. The “peaceful” and mundane life that we are used to has shattered. Now is the time God is showing His children who they truly need to depend on— and it isn’t anything in this world.

God is setting the stage for the return of His son. He is showing us a glimpse of what this world will be like before Jesus returns. Fear. Uncertainty. Pestilence. Selfishness. Confusion. A world that I don’t want to be a part of, a world that will get much worse than what we are living through now. Thankfully, I won’t have to be a part of this horrible world going through tribulation because I accepted Jesus as Lord of my life.

Have you made the same decision?

The Holy Spirit assures me that we are going to have many uncertain days ahead, difficult days that will shake our very being. He wants us to know that He’s got this and we have nothing to worry about if we will only TRUST HIM. Let God bring peace to your soul. Although I have times where my uncertainty comes out, my heart is truly at peace because I know who my protector and provider is.

We need to take this time and rededicate ourselves to serving Jesus. The one thing that weighs heavily on my heart is that unbelievers will spend eternity apart from God. My heart aches for those people and I want to do everything in my power to bring as many people to Jesus as possible. I do realize this can be a challenge, but I want to know that I did everything in my power to achieve this goal.

I have had one verse tucked in my heart this entire time, one that I lean on. I leave it for you as a reminder of who is in control:

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6

Remember those words when you are struggling for control in your life. Remember that you must release control and rely on the one who is fully in control, even during these uncertain times. And take action now. Be the disciple that Jesus has called you to be!